"Mommy, today was pajama day...and you didn't put me in pajamas!"

Getting off the bus today: "Mommy, today was pajama day...and you didn't put me in my pajamas!  My friends were all in their pajamas...and you forgot!"

Cue the tears...for both of us.  Despite it being on my calendar in big bold letters and me even having a reminder set on my phone, I did the unthinkable.  I forgot.  And while I don't think this moment will traumatize my son for life, today my mistake made his day worse.  He probably felt left out.  He probably felt embarrassed that he was the only one not in his pajamas.  And I made him feel that way.

This mommin' gig ain't easy, folks.  Some days, you feel like you're doing okay, other days you feel like a total failure.  And today was definitely one of those days.

I just wish there was more of me to go around.  A me to keep up on the laundry, housecleaning, and cooking.  A me that is great at my job and helps provide for my family.  A me whose sole job is to take care of the children.  A me to be the wife my husband deserves.  A me that could focus on her personal health and well-being.  I wish I never had to choose between snuggling my children and making plans for work.  I wish I didn't always feel like spending quality time with my husband was this urban myth that only happens in the fairy tales.  I wish I didn't have to choose between my house being clean and getting in a workout.  But the reality is, there is only one me.  And I DO have to choose what gets done...because I simply can't do it all.

I can do the best I can at balancing each facet of my life, but at the end of the day, if I'm doing something really well...then everything else is going to shit.  Or if I'm truly trying to do it all, then it's all only getting done half-assed.

There's just not enough of Mommy.  And I can't imagine I'll ever feel like there is.  So for now, I just hope I can get by...and hopefully not miss the next pajama day.

Midland Holiday Pines 2017

Saturday afternoon, we carried on our yearly holiday tradition of going to Midland Holiday Pines to pick out a Christmas tree.  My sister Nicole came with us and took a few pictures.  This is the 12th year we've gotten our tree from them.  Such a fun tradition!